how to not to be not better

i have fallen into my own pool of mistakes. have you ever thought of being not good enough? not good enough for your life? not good enough for your peers? not good enough to the essence or notion of life around you? ever felt that life was cruel and fate was disobedient by the fact that you absolutely confident that you just did your best and you just did not get what you want? ever felt that you wanted to do better, although toughness keeps calling for future needs and you just can't go on? ever felt that you wanted to give up? ever felt that the life is so pathetic that you want to turn back around? well, heads up. pick your spot. spray the load. lay em off. spread the words. behave your mind. think your thoughts. the answer is simply jihad.(sounds like some tv ads plak.haha)

lets get the fact straight. with all of the posts that i have published. dear strangers, i just wanna say that, i am no religious person. i am no pious man. i am no president of the msa or whatever. i am simply a guy who spread the words that i know is right. but knowing is such different than that of the act of practising. there's a theodicy talk in my campus a while ago. its not the word of God or Evil that captured my attention. it was simply a question from an anonymous about , "is Jihad evil?". the speaker gave a very clear view on why the real jihad is, not whatsoever, evil. i was amazed, that as a matter of fact, i am a selfish, forgetful, and an ignorant person. people hear the word Jihad everyday. my fellow muslim peers know the very exact definition of Jihad. But the reality is, we, oh wait, I failed to use this very greatful tool to not to be not better, in life.

but still, confusion strucks my thought a while ago. the requirement to use this very tool is totally difficult. i mean, it starts for your ethics. from your daily practise. from the way you think or the way you act. and if that is logic and do-able, would we make that as our everyday norms? probably istiqamah is the hardest part, at least that what i think. when i say jihad, i am not talking about doing full time ibadah such as 'solat sunat', etc.; all the time. dont get me wrong. what do i mean is that; performing your everyday usual norms, in a far more, optimistically better way. when you soccer, shoot the ball as hard as you can. when you study, read more. when you jump, bounce it hard. when you walk, pace further away. there is more to life than just looking back. so, keep getting better okay? ;)

12 comments:

atiqahmki said...

wow.
sweeeet,
heh.
kat atas tuh cm complicated gile, tp solution die SOUNDS easy.hehu.

donna said...

Woah!!! seriously...best gile!!! kau blog lagi weh!!! best nak bace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Asyraf said...

amki: heheh.yep rite.sounds 'easy'.uhu.octranspo dah habis berjihad kan.haha

donna: takde ape pun lah.aku just.doodle2.eheh.tapi thx anyway!

Farhanah Radzif said...

haha, jangankan the opening tu tiqah, title je pun kita dah tak faham dah tiqah, complicated gila. Muka jadi macamni --> >:S

Anyways, cara ko menulis unique ar dota. I noticed your writing tends to be metaphorical but repetitive (to prove a point, I assume). Jihad dengan tendang bola sekuat kuatnya semasa bermain bola!

Anyways, all the best man

rosso said...

It's like everytime you are about to sit an exam, you will say to yourself, "Kali ni aku mesti buat betul2!!!"

As if before this you didn't try hard enough DURING the exam. The thing that we should be looking at here is not the moment when we are actually executing the 'amal, but the process towards perfecting it. That is, what you actually do BEFORE the exam. Not the final two weeks before exam, but more of the whole year before the exam.

As an analogy, waking up for fajr prayer. when a friend try to woke us up, we say to them, "jap2, tgh kumpul tenaga (nak sambung tido)". But obviously that's not how you tackle the problem. One way, is to plan for a month, and get a checklist that you tick everyday:
Do i ate too much today?
Do i sleep early today?
Do i commit a lot of sins today?

And then we will see and track our performance everyday for the whole month. It might seem a bit tedious, but that's how I think we can put jihad in a more practical way. Of course there is more to it than just that.

nice post btw.

Asyraf said...

rusmanarief: cool! i totally agree.the path you took to achieve those goals are what it depends on.anyway,im just trying to shovel a point where in jihad, we cant just be hangat2 tahi ayam. listed all the todolist, but the effort towards it are totally zero. and i myself, sometimes hangat2 tahi ayamly on trying to perform my daily goals.sigh.perhaps there's a better tomorrow ay.

farhanahradzif: i think the introduction part, i kinda want to letup2 skit.haha.and erm.repetitive.i noticed that.somehow, there's still a part of me that is not so random after all.haha~

Kayrone said...

huhu..nice post.!
aku rse aku phm la kowt ape yg aku bce.ngeh3.:p
anyway, shisha??haha..aku x pnh try. but aku rse mendealah tu lg bhy kowt.huhuhu..but, definitely tastes better la kan?hehe

donna said...

canadian~ :P stop by page aku sat...hahah...nak menyusahkan kau jap

Anonymous said...

saya memerlukan 5 minit untuk berpk masak2 mengenai makna post anda.

hehe.

♥♥♥♥ dilaBanGi ♥♥♥♥ said...

acap..
bila nak balik?
ada rezeki kita jumpa erk
moga ceria selalu

nohskywalker said...

i can show u on how to keep on doing mistakes..kah3

daus said...

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