Allah! Forgive Me!

I'm so blind

I mean. Why didn't I foreseen this?

I should have known. 

The world is so twisted with hypocritical words 

Spread like swarm of bees with magnitudes of an earthquake

I surrender to you Lord but I'm so afraid if I'll be surrendered by the world

when ignorance eat my heart out and people keep asking me things

I'm not here to please people. I'm here to please God

So please! help me out man

I can't get out of this world alone

Ride along with me for the journey to Jannah

The world is just a game made by God

To test our credibility and yet are we qualify enough to meet Him. 

Heaven has a huge price. 

I'm not sure I can pay with my money in my pocket

Oh and my cash book has a bad ending

But all I have is my tiny whiny good deeds

So, I'm here. Prostrating to you. Pondering. Wondering. Thinking. Imploring. I need your mercy Allah!

"Oh people, repent to Allah, for indeed, I repent to Allah 100 times every day"
[Muslim : 2702]

Ibn Mas'ud narrated that the Prophet said:
“Indeed, Allah is more happy with the repentance of His slave than a man who stops in a barren, desolate land; with him he has his riding animal. He then goes to sleep. When he wakes up, [he realizes that] his mount is gone. He searches for it until he is on the verge of dying. He then says, ‘I will return to the place wherein I lost it, and I will die there.’ He went to that place, and he was then overcome by sleep. When he woke up, his mount was [standing] right beside his head: on it was his food, his drink, his provisions, and the things he neded. Allah is more happy with the repentance of his believing slave than the aforementioned man when he finds his mount and his provisions.”
[al-Bukhaari: 6308 ; Muslim: 2744]

p/s: has nothing to do with my academic nor personal problem. I'm fine. Just that I need to be aware I'm living in a state where challenges and tests are gonna get me