i was looking forth. everybody was laughing at this one person. i held a blanket. i wanted to wrap the fear on the blanket. for this person. it was so sympathetic. she turned away. i brought her inside. we looked out the window. those people who laughed at her, somehow got hypnotized or something. jumping themselves down the roof. it was horrible. it was a nightmare. it was like a vast rain of suicidal act. i was terrified and traumatized.
woke up. its 7 am. still time for subuh. syuruk's 7.30am. got up, take wudu', perform my daily duty. held my hands up forth, seeking tranquility.
tempted by the pretty ugly bed. it was cold. beaten by my lust of cautious. went to sleep. and another nightmare.
my father died. Astaghfirullah. i was crying like hell. everybody was sadden by this. my brother reached me. hug me. i went home. finding my path. i felt so lost. i felt so dimmed. performed my prayer. what is this feeling? the feeling of a fatherless poor little boy. i saw orphans crying. people trying to cheer me up. i left them out. and then i woke up.
it was 10am. Astaghfirullah, Thank God. it was a dream. He gave me a lesson again. if thats the feeling of the people that have no fathers and mothers, then i should be thankful for what i have. always. and one thing. i dont have anything to give in turn for my beloved parents, but please God, accept my prayer and do'a as i am only your weak servant.
and umm yeah, dont sleep after subuh =X
8 comments:
orang kate..
"mimpi selalunye opposite dgn real life"
entah la..
before, i also dreamt about the death of a family member. it makes me love the person even more. but have to keep in mind that it doesn't give any hint on the death precedence of any of them. only Allah knows about the alghaib (unseen).
i forgot to wish kakyong and kaksu yesterday. so i just did a few minutes ago with a "belated" tags. did you?
cap.panjang umur pakcik raman.insyaAllah
atiqahmki: hmm.kesian kawan ko.tapi tidur lepas asar memang tak baik pun kan.aku penah bangun tidur asar pastu solat subuh lol :X anyway He knows the best ;)
azlan: mungkin betul mungkin tak.ilusi optik kot.lol
ibad:oh i did that on the morning of their burfday.but they were sleeping so i just passed the wish to maksu.have u heard about their vacation thingy story.funny
evanezlova: insyallah.jzkk
salam cap...
also had experienced as yours...but insyaAllah, it'll make u stronger and give a lesson to appreciate those who love around you whether they are far away or beside you...
may Allah accept your ibadah, ameen...
the vacation. ive seen the entry in the fp and blogspot. was there any specific story behind it?
ak xabeh2 mimpi psl antu =(
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